by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
The Power of Presence It was a typical Sunday night when, looking up from my books, I heard a loud thud, followed by groans from the room next door. Running in I found my dad unconscious on the floor, his body violently shaking. I called 911, terrified as the...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Blissful Ignorance I was happy. At the time I didn’t know it, when you grow up happy you can’t distinguish between joy and despair because you haven’t been truly unhappy. You don’t really understand why people would be cold and miserable. In my...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Dear Amy Dear Amy, This is your older self writing. You don’t know this yet, but your life is about to change in a way you can’t even imagine. The reason your chest hurts will be figured out, but it’s going to get a whole lot worse before it gets better. I can...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Visit Me More Often Mom, I wish you came to visit me more often. It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. As you know, life has been very difficult for me but I’ve learned to adjust. Dad has been dad. He’s still stubborn and annoying, but he’s trying his best. Crystal...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Creating Rainbows My life is like an unpredictable weather system. I am no meteorologist, but I do know that you will need many pairs of rain boots, an umbrella, and the occasional sunblock if you were to live my life. Everyone has their gloomy and sunny days. For...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
The Ribbon Age 12 is a vulnerable time. The effects of cancer are tremendous toward those who suffer from it, but often people do not stop to think about who else it could be affecting. When I entered Jr. High, my biggest worries started with simple things like, “do...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
I know what it means to be brave. Cancer. I know what that word means. when you live knowing this thing inside of you has caused so much pain it’s hard to forget. I know what it means to be scared, to tremble at night, dreading test results and bad news. ...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Hair On the Shower Wall Cancer always feels out of reach, something off in the distance that will never affect you. I thought that too, until I was sixteen. I was diagnosed with stage three Burkitt Lymphoma in May of 2020, in the midst of quarantine. It seemed to...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
I Believe in Yesterday “Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away” John Lennon sings in one of my dad and I’s favorite songs. Yesterday for me is any day before August 22nd, 2018. As I walked downstairs to talk to my dad about school, what I saw before me is an...
by cpathc1dv | May 21, 2021
Cancer: The Monster Who’s Claws I Can’t Escape Cancer is a monster. Not one with sharp pointy teeth and claws in the place of hands. It’s much worse than that. It comes in the form of kind, loving eyes turning dull with pain. An ambitious mind suddenly unmotivated. A...
